Esther Beadle, patient

Esther Beadle@NHS from 06/03/17 to 10/03/17

Twitter Handle: @estherbeadle

Condition: Borderline Personality Disorder

Place of treatment: Northumberland, Tyne and Wear NHS Foundation Trust

Like pretty much everyone, the NHS has been there for me since the very start. But it’s only in the past year that I’ve truly come to depend on it and the care of its staff to help prevent me getting poorly.

Last year I became very unwell, went missing and ended up in A&E at St. Thomas’ Hospital in London. A few psychiatric assessments later, and I was diagnosed with something called borderline personality disorder, also known as emotionally unstable personality disorder.

I now get regular care and support from my community mental health team (CMHT) and have a community psychiatric nurse (CPN) who helps me keep tabs on how I’m doing. I’m no longer on medication and have just completed a course of dialectical behaviour therapy (DBT) skills that help me manage my condition.

Having BPD is tough. It is not easy. But it does not HAVE to make life impossible – even though, for some people, it can. This is why we absolutely need to keep fighting for good, compassionate, patient-centred care.

That’s why I try to do my best to talk about my mental health openly. It’s a big passion of mine – along with local news (as a former journo), European languages and 1970s rock albums.

I’m back in full-time work now, as a communications advisor for Northumberland, Tyne and Wear NHS Foundation Trust, which also provides my mental health care. I have a flat. I’m a Girl Guide leader. And I now I try to shout from the roof tops about mental health care and why it is vital that we get it right.

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